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Realizing all the changes I GTKM

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The reason I decided to write now is simple and weird at the same time. Today I was walking home from work (which I quit today & not sad about that) and it all looked like in a movie. I'm not joking it really looked like that! The music was playing (I had earphones), everything seemed relaxing and I lifted my head to look in the sky. It was cloudy and few seconds after it started to rain. Usually I would've walked fast to home, but then I smiled like an idiot and enjoyed the moment (one of the reasons was that I hadn't any makeup on). Anyway, while I was happy about walking in rain I caught myself thinking about how everything changed in my life. Not just my haircut and color (that I'm always changing, because I can't find the color I feel, if you understand), but everything really changed.
First of all. I don't know if my mentioned that in earlier posts, but when I was younger I had a friend and I listened to that friends opinion every damn time, I hadn't my own, because I wasn't confident enough to make decisions about myself and many more. I'm not saying that now I'm fully confident in myself, but these days I can finally make decisions on my own. I know some of you may not understand this or while reading this will think that this is stupid, but it's true, I can finally think with my own head and don't listen to that friend, because the main point was to make me look like them, act like them and do everything what they do, because if I would do the opposite, then it will be shameful and others will think that we aren't normal. So yeah, now I got rid of that friend and I'm feeling free, feeling that I could do anything and nobody won't judge me (except my mom, she likes to criticize me, but oh well that's what moms do). 
Secondly, I also thought about my activities that I do and my priorities. I used to think that my most important stuff in life is to get a great job that I would love and move out, start a new life. Well it is in one of the first places, but one evening my best friend asked me a question ''What is your priority in life?'' And I couldn't answer exactly, I got confused and most of the days I think about that and the more I think, the more I realize (and my head starts hurting me haha) that taking care of myself, not forgetting who am I really are and fixing my relationship with my parents is more important than getting a great job that I would love and starting new life. So if you are reading this here's your answer Victoria.
But what I realize more is that new start is happening here right now, because I changed and everything else around me changed so it is the beginning of something new that I hope will go on well. Yes there will be good days and bad, but without that I won't be able to reach my goals in life.
Anyway, today's post is a lot more different than the others, but I hope you like it and see you soon!
xx


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